good days and bad days, days full of commitments and day on a bed doing nothing to pass. And they all the same, all last 24 hours. And no doubt it will pass. Slowly I realized that no matter what happens, because sooner or later it ends. It ends your life, nothing is forever. Your feelings and your emotions are not moments ever. They are just moments that come and go and eternity has nothing to do.
You fall asleep thinking that tomorrow you will face a difficult day, and the next day you find yourself in the same position to please because even that is gone or have yet to think about the future. As a tireless machines, without any minute when you can rest. As we had moments we intended to go and never come back.
Tonight I'm feeling philosophical, but my thoughts are almost the same for a couple of time. Tonight is also sad, say down. If I was moved watching the princess and the frog would even say that I'm not putting that well.
But because I feel like a failure. As if I were in deficit of myself. As if I was denying something. I do not know what it is that is holding me back. As part of that does not exist I want to keep with me forever. Why do not fully realize my philosophy, that of the bus to Preston "One day your life will flash in front your eyes. Make sure it is worth watching. Why block me. Perhaps because a pinch of eternal fairy tale, we still have the inside. And I can not get him out. I can not throw that away from me because is part of me. But I try. God knows I wish it were far away ... about as much as I wish it were closer. Must be my everything and my nothing. I know that will never go away ... my all until it becomes nothing.
